“God’s gracious commitment to pursue us in greater than our commitment to pursue Him.”

This past year has personally been a successful year in many worldly aspects. God presented me with exciting opportunities in my career. My children flourished in their respective transitions into school. Life overall has been relatively stable.

Yet there have been plenty of voices calling to me throughout the year, telling me what I ought to do, how I ought to do it, how I was always falling short in some way, shape or form, despite the appearance of success. My own inner voice struggled at times to find clarity and a compass in the midst of the cacophony. The world’s voice is neither one of consistency nor grace, and trying to live by it always leaves my soul lacking, even in a year when at least externally, I have exceeded my earthly goals.  

The true anchoring of my soul in 2018 has not come from worldly success. It has come through consistent, daily Bible reading that has been the fruit from a “Read Through the Bible in One Year” group study initiated by some Cornerstone WLA women who wanted accountability in digging into the Word together. Using the YouVersion Bible App, we read (or listened to) daily readings that took us chronologically through the Bible in a year. We then posted one brief reflection on the App about what God showed us through that day's reading. 

Sometimes I read the assigned chapters for the day; most times I listened to the readings on my phone as I got ready in the morning. Not every daily reading consisted of profound, transformative moments, but steadily and surely, my relationship with God has grown simply because there has been consistent daily time for me to hear His voice. Just as I have some low-key, everyday moments of connecting with my closest family members, and other deeper times of connecting, this study has helped me to develop a relational pattern of daily walking, daily listening, daily openness to how He would seek to meet me.

My commitment to this study has not been a natural overflow of a deep, pure, passionate yearning for God. I wish it was. Sure, some of my commitment was motivated by a desire for a healthier spiritual life, but some was also motivated by positive peer pressure, wanting to please or impress others, and wanting to impress myself. Yet God in His grace used my mixed motives to develop a habit, and from there, cultivate a joy and growing hunger as He graciously spoke to me daily in His Word. 

The voices from the world and my own self have been brought into the light for what they are – truth or lies – as I ground myself in His Word and steadfast character. He showed me myself in the Israelites’ unfaithfulness over years and years, yet He showed me more of Himself as the Faithful One despite it all. I grew more anchored in who He is. He grew in me a longing for a Rescuer, and then showed me the glory, healing and comfort in beholding the Promised Messiah. I grew more anchored in what He has done. He showed me what a redeemed life in His kingdom looks like as I read about the young believers in the New Testament. I grew more anchored in what I am called to. He has been showing me who I have been in 2018, who He has been through all eternity, and finally who we are together in relationship because of what He has done. 

I encourage you to consider finding a similar Bible reading plan as we look to 2019, and find a small group of brothers and/or sisters to read through it with and keep you accountable. Don’t overthink any mixed motives you may have; simply open your heart to God’s gracious commitment to pursue us in relationship which is greater than our commitment to pursue Him. He will meet you. This daily time in His Word will help our souls to proclaim with the Psalmist each day,

It is good to give thanks to the Lord,
    to sing praises to your name, O Most High;
to declare your steadfast love in the morning,
    and your faithfulness by night.
-Psalm 92:2


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Alina Sato

Alina is a member of Cornerstone and serves the church as a servant minister.

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